Of Success and Victory...

...or absence thereof. Of course, I cried victory prematurely. C's nights have been all but restful. She has been waking up five to six times a night for the past three days! What's up with that? Maybe it's because she has discovered she could roam in her crib and uses that ability to the fullest. When she cries during the night and I enter the dark room, I never know where in her crib she will be. I have to pat around in search of limbs, then play a kind of physical puzzle: "if this is her left hand, given its angle, she's probably on her side and I should find another arm....Here!". Sometimes she's on her belly, sometimes on her back, sometimes sitting, sometimes on her hands and knees. She's occasionally managed to get a limb stuck between the bars of the crib too. Now, very smart people in books have told me that to increase time between night feedings, I should try to calm her down and put her back to sleep without nursing her. These smart peoples have not met my daughter. Not picking her up is not an option. If she sees me and I don't pick her up, her world collapses. I do not want social services to be alerted. So I pick her up and try to rock her. But she's strong now! She pushes herself so as to be able to get to my breast and tries suckling through my tank top. Yeah. Determined is one word for it. She does go back to sleep very easily after nursing though, so I'll stick to that for now, I think. Maybe she'll get used to her new bed, or learn to put herself back to sleep? She does a good job of putting herself to sleep for naps; I haven't needed to rock her for a month now. Who knows? She is also getting more mommy-attached, which might explain sleep problems too... In any case, I haven't thrown her out the window (or defenestrated her, for defenestration lovers) yet, and that is a testimony to something...The power of love, her cuteness, the presence of child guards in the windows? Always thought those were there to prevent kids from defenestrating themselves... Live and learn...